Can you find the time 
to let your lover love you
He only wants to show you
The things he wants to learn too
The hardest parts you’ll get through
And in the end you’ll have your best friend

Love like this may come once
Baby it’s fate
Like a soul mate he’s your penguin
Baby it’s fate
Baby it’s fate
Not luck

Can you find the time to let your lover hold you
He needs somebody to hold to
His love is strong and so true
His arrows aiming for you
And he’s the one that you were born to love

Worst girlfriend everrrr goes tooo…

< Me 

I fucking hate myself.

Taking a break from my boyfriend for the weekend, or just today, whatever, just until I can figure out my feelings, Told him I needed some time to myself to think about stuff ‘cause life/reality is catching up to me, Sugar-coated it so he wouldn’t get butthurt ‘cause, well, it’s bad news to guys if you tell them you want a break from them, 

…He respects my wishes & commands & listens to me. 

He’s too caring & too sweet.

Tries so hard to keep me smiling,

Literally will do anything to make me happy

Wants to spoil me,

Need I  go on? Any girl would say he’s the perfect boyfriend & he is

So, what’s wrong with me? Why I don’t appreciate any of this that much?

…I’m not really afraid of getting hurt by him, ‘cause far as I know & i’m aware, he would never wanna leave me, I’m wondering if after 6 years of hanging out with a bunch of assholes who have done nothing good ever but make me cry, use me, & leave me has made me completely emotionally dead? 

Call me pretty, beautiful, spoil me, like me for who I am, No effect on me,

But if I see you hurting or you hurt me, or leave me, I feel something then. 

Everything’s the complete opposite with me. 

I’m seriously scared for my life that as I grow up, someone really good that comes along, I will only try to push them away, but if some asshole comes up to me, …I don’t know anything anymore. Why do I like assholes? 

Gahd, like I don’t know how to handle this, I go from being treated like complete shit from douchebags to all of a sudden having one fall practically in love with me, it’s too fast, I need something in between, I want someone who’s like somewhat of an asshole, Is that bad? hah,  & you know what, I did meet someone like that, half amazing as fuck & complete asshole at the same time, I’m weird. 

From shit to making someone fall in love with you…

It’s like eating a shit load of junk food for like your entire life then all of a sudden going on a healthy diet, drinking water & eating veggies & fruits, & just how I feel, it takes time for your body to adjust to things…

Srsly, I’ve been wishing & complaining for a good guy to come along, here he is, & I am unappreciative. I hate myself & I feel bad for him. 

I feel…. Well, I don’t know what to feel. I probably should be single, but I hate it, I enjoy it but hate it at the same time, but but but but but but, can I just …not exist?

I DON’T DESERVE ANYONE. I just don’t, k? Fuck. ;-;

My boyfriend hasn’t texted me all day until like 2 hours ago because he’s been playing fucking Halo. FUCKING HALO. Fucking mother fucking halo on his mother fucking Xbox. …ಠ_ಠ

Going to a friends house

• Normal people: What a lovely home you have
• Me: Whats your wifi password?

What does love feel like?